yesterday i had dinner with a group of what i like to consider my closest friends. i'm not sure how this came up, but i suddenly asked them all "what would you say at each other's funerals?". it was quite the light-hearted conversation, with many inside jokes and fun, and definitely not very serious. how ironic that at the same moment, there was a group of people mourning the loss of their friend.
i'm looking at the recently passed away person's facebook, and his wall is filled with comments of how much they miss him and how they remembered the good times. most were probably his good friends, but many were just simple expressions of sympathy and sorrow. there are notes, messages, and even an event created of holding a memorial service for him tonight on campus. nobody knows for sure if he is able to read all those comments, but i wonder...how well do most of the people actually know him?
andru hu was definitely quite the party-goer, and like most people i met him about a year ago at his apartment at a small party. but i really got to know him last semester, in my eco304k class. i recently transferred to being an economics major at that time, and finally knowing an acquaintance in one of my overly populated classes was considered a blessing. almost every week we would work on homework together, tutoring each other the information that our teacher sometimes failed to relay effectively. we spent most of the time studying, driving around getting some food, discussing a variety of topics, and solving sudoku puzzles when we got incredibly bored of the material we were supposed to be working on. he introduced me to the website www.woot.com, which i've been checking daily ever since i discovered it. in a small way, andru has made some significant impact on my life.
a friend called me last night, someone who also knew andru through homework and study sessions for eco304k. he asked if i knew what exactly what happened, but unfortunately i do not know all the details. it came to my attention that andru and i barely kept in contact this semester, but on the occasion we did run to each other on campus we would just make small talk. yet it is the same story with many friendships i have made with other people, how i spend a great amount of time for an extended period, but never able to continuously hang out in the future. how strange, this feeling of uncertainty. i feel deeply saddened by this sudden loss, and yet i cannot imagine the pain of what his family and closest friends are feeling. it affects me, barely making me able to think or feel as i walk to class this morning and make my way home afterwards. i notice another group of friends during my mindless trance, wondering if they have also have heard of this recent tragedy. perhaps they are just curious as to where my usual humorous nature went. i wonder what that feeling was or where it came from.
it is not because life is too short, it is because life is taken for granted. we live in a cruel world, because we fail to recognize any reason to be happy. we hardly appreciate what we have, what we don't have, the things that happened, and what has yet to come. we carefully take time to choose our friends and spend most of it making enemies. we only care about ourselves and not about the people who care about us.
last night, i wondered what that feeling was. it was fear.
andru hu, rest in peace
i'm looking at the recently passed away person's facebook, and his wall is filled with comments of how much they miss him and how they remembered the good times. most were probably his good friends, but many were just simple expressions of sympathy and sorrow. there are notes, messages, and even an event created of holding a memorial service for him tonight on campus. nobody knows for sure if he is able to read all those comments, but i wonder...how well do most of the people actually know him?
andru hu was definitely quite the party-goer, and like most people i met him about a year ago at his apartment at a small party. but i really got to know him last semester, in my eco304k class. i recently transferred to being an economics major at that time, and finally knowing an acquaintance in one of my overly populated classes was considered a blessing. almost every week we would work on homework together, tutoring each other the information that our teacher sometimes failed to relay effectively. we spent most of the time studying, driving around getting some food, discussing a variety of topics, and solving sudoku puzzles when we got incredibly bored of the material we were supposed to be working on. he introduced me to the website www.woot.com, which i've been checking daily ever since i discovered it. in a small way, andru has made some significant impact on my life.
a friend called me last night, someone who also knew andru through homework and study sessions for eco304k. he asked if i knew what exactly what happened, but unfortunately i do not know all the details. it came to my attention that andru and i barely kept in contact this semester, but on the occasion we did run to each other on campus we would just make small talk. yet it is the same story with many friendships i have made with other people, how i spend a great amount of time for an extended period, but never able to continuously hang out in the future. how strange, this feeling of uncertainty. i feel deeply saddened by this sudden loss, and yet i cannot imagine the pain of what his family and closest friends are feeling. it affects me, barely making me able to think or feel as i walk to class this morning and make my way home afterwards. i notice another group of friends during my mindless trance, wondering if they have also have heard of this recent tragedy. perhaps they are just curious as to where my usual humorous nature went. i wonder what that feeling was or where it came from.
it is not because life is too short, it is because life is taken for granted. we live in a cruel world, because we fail to recognize any reason to be happy. we hardly appreciate what we have, what we don't have, the things that happened, and what has yet to come. we carefully take time to choose our friends and spend most of it making enemies. we only care about ourselves and not about the people who care about us.
last night, i wondered what that feeling was. it was fear.
andru hu, rest in peace
2 comments:
It's so ironic that I was just thinking today "I haven't been to Eric's blog in so long." and then to read this post made me so sad.
I'm so sorry for your loss, Eric. I hope that your friend is indeed resting in peace, and that a situation like this will never happen with us - where one of us wishes we had spent more time with the other while we could have. ^_^ *hug* miss you! hahaha
man, it's definitely tough to lose a friend, especially one that you actually know and hung out with in person. i can sympathize with you, since that happened to one of my friends who i knew... and i guess this is the time of life where we experience the dismal feeling of the death of a loved one, or someone you know. hope you feel better buddy. give me a call if you want to chill out, eat, talk, whatever =)
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